What do you do when you don’t know who your real friends are?
Haven’t been on here in a while, but kind of need a place to vent, even if no one responds, so yeah.
Last night was a bad night. My parents, God love them, had another argument and threatened again to get a divorce(nothing new, been dealing with it since I was little), then to top things off, I get a call from my ex. We’ve been chatting back and forth since we broke up, I know, not a good idea, but it’s hard to let go of your first love, even if they were kind of a bad person to be in love with(not the abusive kind of guy, just not the best). It’s like I’ve finally wanted to maybe tell him we need to break off from texting for awhile, and then he tells me the same thing I’d been thinking(and I know what you’re thinking, how the hell does that make any sense to why I’m upset), maybe it’s a control thing maybe it was his timing, I don’t even know, I really don’t. On top of it, he tells me he’s got a girl he’s seeking out and to top it off, she’s got the same name as me, same country personality and same interests and ahhhhhhh. I don’t even know. I mean, he tells me, if you find someone, don’t stop talking to me, then he goes and does the complete opposite and then I’ve got to deal with a wave of old emotions coming at me, with no one to talk to.
My parents will get upset with me, two out of four of my closest friends are in constant close contact with him and don’t want to talk to me about him, if I get the urge to vent or something because they’re somehow on his side of this whole mess(in short, he stole from my family, stole from me, stole from lots of people and hurt me because of it and originally one of them had supposedly sworn off talking to him…To top that off, my one friend feels betrayed because I started up with an old best friend, because the two of us had kind of grown up together(best friends for 10 years), the other girl and I have only been good, kind of best friends for a year and a half, the same amount of time she’s known my ex and I simply don’t know what to do. Can someone tell me?
I know I’ve got an ounce of jealous, but there’s more to this than that. A good friend of mine told me it took him over a year to get over his first love, so maybe I still love him a little, even though I know I shouldn’t. We were together for two and a half years, and for that half or so, lived together. We were suppose to get married some day, but while I know I’d never trust him and it would’ve been bad, feelings don’t simply go away, which is hard, since I don’t really deal well with feelings. Someone please help…
pukakke asked: I made a vent blog incase you were interested (and still follow me thanks to all--i--feel--is--pain, I believe <3 )
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